I am a 21-year-old married woman. I love my husband so much. My only problem in this marriage right now is that I donβt enjoy intimacy. Itβs not about the size of my husbandβhe is a full package.
The truth is, I had a dark past where I have been with different men from a young age. I think I started when I was th(ir)teen. I have changed. My husband knows this. He knows everything about my story. I also told him that I donβt really enjoy intimacy or reach Ιrgasm like other women do. The only time I can is when I do it myself.
When Iβm with my husband, I always hope Iβll get there, but I donβt. Instead, I start feeling sore because Iβm not feeling anything.
He is good with his fingers, oh, he plays me like a violin. His tongue game is fire. And when it gets to the main show and he goes all in, it feels like home. Yet none of these magical skills turn me into a blabbering mess who has experienced too much pleasure.
Even in the past, when I was with other men, I never used to get there. I didnβt mind back then. Maybe I was too young to care about those things. But now I doβI want to experience it like other women.
Unfortunately, I have become worse since I got pregnant. I donβt even have feelings for intimacy anymore. It makes me feel sorry for my husband, because it looks like I am rejecting him. I swear itβs not intentional. Sometimes I even force myself to give in, but still nothing happens. Please, what should I do? I think I need help.






